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i thought ypsb and jbf was fun but the 34th NCO CAMP was the best HANDS DOWN!!!
WOOHOOO...
POP totally rocked and i love the friends i made that!!!!!
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i havent uploaded for ages... hahah

pictures!




me and cheryl ho!!! HOHOHO...hurhur



me and amk  bma ANDYY!!



me and amk dm JIA YAN :D

JBF WAS THE BOMB
omggggg SC JUNIOR BAND TOTALLY ROCKK!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE ZILIN!!!!! BIG FUN IN THE SUN WAS DAMN FUNNN!!!!!!!!! me and cheryl ho were dancing backstage and everyone was staring but who cares!!!! was superr highh!!!!!!
rawrrr.. i wanted to just be part of the audience but i guess it was not possible. had to do a lot of walking ard. but wth
"when life gives you lemon. make lemonade!" -cappie!!!
IM SO PROUD OF THE JUNIOR BAND !!!!!!!!! AND THE SAXOPHONE SECTION!!!!!!!!! 
i love you guys. you all really improved a lot!!!!! yayyy!!!!!!!!!!!
and the juniors actually listen to me. maybe thats why i had so much fun and not stressed at all. hahahah.
OH! OH!
FUHUA PRIMARY.
syabil, rama , samuel and some other ppl. dunno their names. they are like little monsters!!!
and they rmb me!!!! hahahahah. whole day also want to fight with me. i must see them again!!!!
thanks syabil for your rice at buka. was really finding time and food to buka.
speaking of that was really nice to see like all the malay ppl frm different schs buka together. i wanted to buka with fuhua ppl but i was to busy cheering for our sch!!! hahaha and dancing!!!
and the malay vch technicians are super nice.
"dah makan?"
"belum"
"pergi makan lah."
they were giving out food to those who were bukaing. yayy!! but i ate my tinkerbell sweets!
i wanted lee wei's doughnuts but she din want to give me. grrr.
i saw nazreen too!
he was like "u fasting?"
im like "yeahh. havent eat yet.very hungry!!!"
he " me too!!!"
then lee wei wanted to give him a cookie so that he could buka and he offered me some but i was like nvm cause lee wei looked really sad when she opened the cookie!
was really happy to see the semangat hahaha. oh and loyang ppl were talking behind me during ed tan's briefing in malay.they were planning what time to leave and where to buka. well finally i hear smt i can understand cause all the other schs talk in chinese.ahh.
oh and im also quite surprised that some ppl rmbered me frm ypsb
joey: "eh baritone sax" hahah. ohh and terence played the baritone sax for the jr band. so...
and some other ppl i dun rmb.ahhah
and shi zheng is the best student conductor ever. me cheryl ho yanny leon were watching him and were soo amazed. like speechless. i think its him then timothy then dunno already. andy and jia yan were behind us like no big deal like that.

and we did the sc cheer after everything ON STAGE. SC SPIRIT!!!!!!!!!! yayyy!!!

YAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!
was really high after the whole thing...heee

WILL POST PICTURES SOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNN

( my babyyy! )


without you theres no me...

RACHEL MCADAMS and RYAN GOSLING ARE BACK ON!!!!!!!!!!!
YAYYY!!!!!!!!!!
im gonna watch the video again so that i can fall in love with them all over again
i want them to last forever. :)
always and forever (naley)
it was the only thing that made me happy

i thought it was just one horrible nightmare but
im not waking up and then i realised
damn its reality

havent really talked abt ypsb so much. just that its ending. part of me is relieved and part of me is saad. sighhh.
ahhhhhhh!!!
im so bloody annoyed. argh!
but i do feel quite proud of myself. hahha


"auditing purposes" - haha

THREE SERVICE <333333333

u noe the whole day i was wearing my saree the wrong way!!!!!!!!!!
soo retarded. and i was drowning in it cause mine was 5m longggg!!!


when i thought all hope was gone you made me smile again 0.o

im all alone

it was my birthday last MONDAY!!!!
had birthday dinner with my family. it was really fun and got my mind off all the sucky block tests.
thanks!

oh and thank you to people who wished me happy birthday!!! i cant list them all but THANKS!!!! YOU PEOPLE ROCK!!!

and SPECIAL THANKS to PEOPLE WHO SURPRISED ME WITH A BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!!!!!
THE CAKE WAS REALLY AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry that i was very stoned that day...i was just speechless cause i was soo TOUCHED!!!
oh and FOR THE WONDERFUL PRESENT!!!! though it looks like you-know-what and actually represents you-know-what!!! hahahah
thank you huda constance lynette pan-e alyssa lee wei fionna pei wen and cheryl ho!!!!!
yayyy!!!!!!!!!!

and thank YOU. i din expect anything from you. i was really touched by your short "note".

and guess what...
i was happy for 40mins of my day!!!!! yayyy!!!!!! thanks to that wonderful shop!!! really made my day!!!!!! yayyy!!!!!!

i seriously miss AISHAH and LAUREN!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sorry. really really am. for being that way. for not doing anything.

to you buggers
STOP TELLING ME WHAT I SHOULD DO, WHAT I SHOULDNT DO CAUSE ITS LIKE SO FREAKING OBVIOUS WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO. STOP ASKING ME WHAT IM GONNA TO DO . I'LL COME UP THE BLOODY SOLUTION. IM NOT GOING AGAINST WHATEVER I BELIEVE IN. IM NOT YOUR PUPPET. IF YOU WANTED A PUPPET THEN IM SORRY YOU MADE THE WRONG DECISION. GO GET ANOTHER PUPPET FOR ALL I FREAKING CARE. SEE IF THIS THING ENDS. ITS EITHER YOU PPL HAVE NO CONSCIENCE OR JUST SPINELESS. WELL IM NOT GONNA BE LIKE YOU. LOOK IN THE MIRROR MANS YOU'VE BEEN LIVING A LIE FOR THE GOD KNOWS HOW MANY YEARS. LYING TO YOURSELF.  WHATS RIGHT MAY NOT WHATS BEST.
IF YOURE NOT GONNA MOVE, THEN I'LL FIGHT. I CAN BE A NOBODY. I JUST CANT BE YOU.

yesterday i actually thought you were nice. maybe cause u were in a good mood, but whatever. frankly you're not the one at fault. i know you tried your best. but then u lack something we all want we are fragile. and the way you handle us is causing to break into a million pieces. maybe cause when everyone was attacking me, forget it. i guess u must have saw smt in me for me to be what i am today. but cant u tell me what u saw. cause seriously i dunno what u saw. i need to know so that i can be what you saw in me. because right now im just watching. but then again you put in that group of ppl whom have abilities i cant match. which demoralises me, pressures me but yet motivates me. i want to work hard but how can i do that without comprimising other areas which i feel are more important.  they are damn good. and they expect so much from me because im there. but i cant do it. u made me that and now my heads a mess and i cant concentrate. ahhh.

the band's not the same

pffttt

i dunno. i seriously dunno. why cant that answer satisfy you? do u thinl i have all the answers? I DONT. im just a normal person with a cherry on top. nothing more. i hate it that now people treat me differently. i cant describe it. its just feels wrong and just different. im still the same old me. why cant anyone i get it? im not gonna change. i wont change. ppl expect so much of me and yet i can only give so little.

but yet...


i have to pull myself together



because right now i cant afford to break down. i have to be there for people, be there to pick them up, get them on their feet and to tell them that the world is not ending. and that. because if im not there, then i think we're all screwed. freaking screwed. i hope this changes. changes for the better. i hope i can change it. get rid of the bad and make it right. do its slow. do it right. (zomg chuck bass)

i will be there for you . always have. always will.

i guess this is what it feels like...

the pictures from europe take superrrr long to upload! arghhh.. really frustrating so i gave up. i wanna go back to switzerland where its nice and cool. :D and venice where they have hot european guys and hilarious gondola rides!! and austria where they have H&M!! and germany was just scorchingly hot. ahh

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY HUDA!!!!!
:):):)
and you're awesome!!! <3333

i feel really unproductive and lazy these holidays. i really dun feel like conquering my mountain of homework...sighh. i've been shitting a lot (random).
 and

JONAS BROTHERS ROCKS!!!
i've been listening to their songs over and over again!!

told ya, i was a sucker for boybands :D

i need to find better pictures of nate for my mood cause they dun show off his good looks!

gossip girl season finale was soo annoying especially the last part. STUPID CHUCK!!! STUPID BART!!!
STUPID BLAIR!!!
smt to celebrate abt:
dan and serena broke up
nate and vanessa broke up
YAYYYYYYY!!!!!!

i love chair's moments!!!
but since lauren blogged abt them already, i shall not waste my time

"take it slow. lets do this right"
ahhh!!!!!!

ONE TREE HII SEASON FINALE ROCKS!!!!
i was tearing the whole time. its so sadd. at the last part my heart like stop beating for 1s.
the ending nearly killed me cause they din show who lucas chose
that means theres a
SEASON 6!!
woohoo
i want chris keller back!!!
hahahah
nathan finally got a shot!!!
haley sang a really nice song
jamie got back into the pool
dan got hit by a car just before he got a heart
peyton did a really nice thing on the river court
and i love the book dedication!!!
and there were a lot of lucas and haley scenes!!
and i like that cause i mean they're best friends!!
best friends mean smt.
WHAT HAPPENED TO OWEN!!!!

 its e-learning week. so im stuck at home doing e-learning and watching my beloved tv shows...i've been very busy with a lot of stuff...sighh. im really scared and worried. i hate being this way. i feel so insecure. gahh
anyway, on a happy note

PARVATI WON SURVIVOR: MICRONESIA
thats not smt to celebrate cause i wanted amanda to win... BUT
OZZY AND AMANDA's RELATIONSHIP is smt to celebrate about.. YAYY!!!
during the reunion, they all gain so much weight!!! ahha
and OZZY ROCKS!!!!
the way he slammed parvati...totally cool.. i love ozzy but he's getting unfit. sigh
and JAMES won the Sprint award AGAIN!!!he's just sooo likeable..
james the gravedigger <33
he's super funny
and ERIK is just plain stupiddd...hahaha

all my shows are ending. this week's:
GOSSIP GIRL 1x18 season finale
MUST WATCHHH!!!!!!!!! LOVE CHUCK..
"i'm chuck bass" WOOHHH!!!!! chuck makes my day...<3333
ED WESTWICK!! but i got to give credit to NATE too. he's looking fine
but oh my...he's soo stupid.hahah

ONE TREE HILL's 5x18 Season Finale
LUCAS IS AN IDIOT
not he got himself tangled up with 3 FRICKING WOMEN
BROOKE, LINDSEY and PEYTON
just like high school all over again.
but at least there's haley to knock some sense into his head
ohh and he got a mohawk.. bwahahaha
jamie is supperr cuteee...

UGLY BETTY 2x18 Season Finale
BETTY SUAREZ, please wake up and realise that...
GIO!!!! is the one for you
and not henry the accountant.. he already has a baby.
and plus even marc wasnt attracted to him and he's frigging gayy
wilhemina is BACKKKKKKKKKKKK.hahah.more drama
ohh and lindsey lohan and naomi campbell are guest stars

GREYS ANATOMY 2HR SPECIAL SEASON FINALE
STUPID DEREK and rose...stupidstupid
STUPID ALEXXXXX...eva is married and not pregnant!!!!
meredith must end up with derek...MUST MUST MUST
and im not used to mark sloan all conservative...hahah
he has turned over a new leaf
i wonder how long will that last
izzie should be with alex

OH YAR WHITNEY WON ANTM CYCLE 10!!!!
she's good but i thought anya was better
they just wanted her to win cause she's a plus size model!!!
but congrats anyway!

oh and i started watching the O.C.
its quite nice.
LAUREN, you should watch it...

with all that is happening, i have to thank my tv shows for distracting me.
really helped me take my mind of a lot of things...AHHH
i dunno how i will do it. but i'll try.
i hope i'll do it right.
i cant screw up
i just cant...

nothing much happened except for some retarded happenings.

i screwed my malay oral big time! for my pembacaan, i had to sneeze after every word and i was like cursing inside my head! and for perbualan the two cikgus kept laughing at me!! AHHHH!!! shit mans.
i was with my father at a petrol station, then he went to check his points at some machine and i wanted to tear the receipt out. when i wanted to tear the receipt out, i flung the whole machine out of the so-called station. damn embarassing. ;)

SC CARNIVAL'08
there were so many freaking ppl there!!! u cant move. i think the school wasnt expecting much people but... ohh and i had seoul garden which was really nice. and a lot of cookies and rice crispies and